Have you ever had something “bad” happen and think, “Not today devil!”?
Most of us have, but what if I told you that the devil needs God’s permission? What if we have been giving him credit instead of looking at the bigger picture to see what God may be up to? So instead of talking to the devil…we should be seeking God.
So there have been some instances in the last 2 years that left me unsettled. People who were supposed to be supporting me spiritually started to rub me the wrong way with their actions. It became clear that something spiritually was affecting them…and thus, me. Mean words were being said, hurtful actions were being done and quite honestly I was really sad, and disappointed by their reactions as it was brought to their attention.
I wrestled with myself because I thought…is it something that I had done? Are they going through something? As I prayed through it, the feeling didn’t changed and neither did the situation really. I was so upset. How could what began as a huge part of my spiritual growth now be causing me be pain?
The Holy Spirit gave me peace about it all and also direction. So, it was time to move on to a new place. No hard feelings, nothing bad to be said… just at peace with moving on. It was scary thinking about leaving a place that I had been for so long but, I knew that God had a reason for what was happening even if I really didn’t know. Honestly, I was still unsettled because I felt like the devil had tried coming for me, and that…well, I didn’t like thinking about.
As I transitioned to a new situation, I continued to seek God about what purpose He had for me in this new place. A place I had not myself chosen… but instead, was led to. A lot of new experiences and adjusting took place and is till taking place. But, I do believe change is good…not always comfortable, but good nonetheless. As I waited, I just trusted that God had a plan…He HAD to have some plan for this and I wanted to see what it was but I also knew that all things are according to God’s purpose, not mine. So, I waited.
Sorry that I am not going into too much detail but hopefully you are getting some of this and it is making sense. (I don’t need to name names to make a point.)
Well, today I was at an event and it dawned on me what God was doing. He was taking me into my purpose…not all of it…but some of it. I know long term what He has shown me, but not the steps to get there. Today, as I sat and listened to announcements being made…it became clear.
God allowed my previous situation to become unsettling. Wait what? Yeah…that’s right. It was not the devil just barging in and causing issues. God was up to something.
As I drove home I began to think about Saul and David. David had been anointed as a young man to be the king of Israel. But, before that…Saul was king. In 1 Samuel 16:14 it says, “Now the Spirit of the Lord had left Saul, and the Lord sent a tormenting spirit that filled him with depression and fear.”
Saul then sends for David to come to play the harp to calm him. He becomes fond of David. After that, David slays the giant, develops a bond with Saul’s son Jonathan, and then Saul becomes jealous of David’s success.
Honestly, this is great stuff. So, if you have not read this…you have to check it out.
So, David is super successful at everything he did because God’s hand was on him. And the more successful David got, the more jealous and mad Saul got. David loved Saul and his son but still…was a bit unsettled that Saul would treat him poorly. But Saul, well…he kept disobeying the Lord…and kept letting his fleshly man to act up and try to hurt David. So, eventually the Lord just allowed some things to happen to Saul. And well, sin… leads to death and … well, he died. (And no, it was not some bedside peaceful death either.) So, while David was running for his life, because Saul was trying to kill him… God had a plan all long. That plan ultimately lead to Saul dying and David becoming king and fulfilling God’s purpose for his life.
I TOTALLY just made a long story short so, you’ll have to read 1 & 2 Samuel to get the rest of the juicy details 🙂
So, back to what I was saying before…
So yes, God allowed my previous situation to become unsettling because if it wasn’t…I would have never left. And I would not have been able to fulfill His purpose.
Even when it looks like things are falling apart…take a step back and see if maybe, just maybe things are falling into place.
I pray that this blesses you in some way! And when things are not quite making sense…get scary, sad, or even hurt…seek the Lord and He will show you what He’s up to …in due time. Because after all…
It’s God’s way…not ours.
I am SO excited for what God is going to do. I am honored to be his servant. Use me Lord that You may be glorified!
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